January 15, 2010

The Difficult MC

I don't know what it is about her, but Moswen el-Brideah is a total pain in the backside. I know so many things about her. Key facts and minor details. I know her biggest secret and darkest fear. Yet, for some reason that completely escapes me, I can't connect to this MC of mine. I can't get inside her head and heart.

It's beyond annoying; it's catastrophic. (Allow me my melodrama, please!) Why?

Because I want to write this story. Desperately. I think I'm so ready to get it on the page and out of my head that my desire to write it is actually interfering with my ability to do so.

Does that even make sense? I don't know. But I'm pretty sure it's the truth.

I want to write this story.

I want it to be as amazing on the page as it is in my head.

I want to bleed the characters out onto the page, not just write them.

But Moswen is being difficult. She's standing mute in the corner, refusing to cooperate and it's making me crazy.

I'm hoping by publicly complaining (whining) about it, she'll stop holding the story hostage.